these inner thoughts apparently wanted to come out and play.

Inconspicuous inside dreaming lines the crevices of the folds of my brain.
Weaving in and out of consciousness.
I open my eyes to see the world and realize that they were once closed for so long.
I believed I was opening them to view the world but my ego tricked me.
It made me believe I was viewing the world in a "happily ever after" format but my eyes were glued shut.
It set up a blank movie screen in my mind and played over and over what it wanted me to see.

I found a sword made of light and tore through that movie screen.
I pierced my eyelids and let oxygen enter my mind.
I let magic enter my mind.
I let truth enter my mind.

Understanding now the simplicity of all beings.
I was drowning in the ocean, thinking I was going to die until I relaized that I was once a fish and knew how to breathe.
I am not a survivor because all the pain and suffering around me was of my own doing.
I was always living.
And I am still living,
but this time the sun trickles down into the ocean water and I can breathe in and out and the dolphins call to me to play

and I answer with love.