its not that easy

life.

i hate it.

ive never had a long term friend.
ive never had someone i could call my best friend for a period longer than a few years.

i hate it!

i fucking hate it so much.
i dont know why.

i just want to do something,\

i need to do something.

i just dont know what.

i just need to leave my comfort zone.

santa barbara is now a comfort zone,

i feel that if i live in biko
that i will start to explore.

im so confused.
but that means im learning.